Blinded!

The lonely flicker of my candle;

Serene and contented-

Was blown out;

It was the darkness of your eyes

The numbness of your heart

Which took away the wailing light

Leaving me behind in this way

Where darkness slept with the day

I stood frightened and alone;

The candle was my only ray

My hope, my vision ‘n my wisdom

Guiding me, all along the way.

Slowly, I started admiring the darkness

The beauty, that makes else invisible

Absorbed, I no longer count 
The days and nights I spend alone

In the darkness that was becoming me

Too late it was, when I realized

The candle was still in my hands

The flame intact and flickering as before

Only that, I was not seeing it

I was blinded

It was the darkness of your eyes.

Insane!!!

My insanity was curtailed, in your presence

Now that you are nowhere to be seen

I resumed my quest, to fade away

Into the blooms; knowing the unknown.

I started hearing weird things about me

Often it was me who did the talking

I hear my voice echoing, out from a hundred throats

I tried to close my ears; but then I was doing the talking

The world has grown suspicious of me since then

I don't blame them for what they don't understand

But I see the pity 'n fear in those eyes

Hate me; be vary of my existence

But I need no mercy from you.

I skipped my pages hastily

To my horror I realized; at the end -

The last few pages have been torn;

Torn away, from my life 'n left incomplete!

In a moment of despair, I cursed thee;

I cried and wept like a child

Tears running fast, down my cheeks

I ran around looking for the lost pages.

Unlike me, I kept on looking

For the lost; I neglected, what existed.   

I realized, I was becoming so like you

To be called sane someday; to be abused.

I stopped looking for the lost pages;

I'll have my story written; my way

You never dare 'n call me sane again

I don't want your sanity!!!

My insanity is now complete...

Regardless of your presence...

I Pretend!!!

The stage was set, on the higher grounds;
Makeup was on, covering the white cells;
Costumes betrayed the ailing panache;
And I entered before your curious eyes;
With that wryly smile that you anticipated,
From me, I thought I knew, forever.

You guessed right, as you are always;
Yes, am an actor.

I had to, though I didn’t wanted
You wouldn’t accept me for what I am
Though graciously you offered me the choices
To be or not to be; I knew I had only one.
One way to go; one way to live_
Act.

I can hear your patience fading now
From the growls and yawns;
Silence isn’t what you expect, from me.
Though you have been, through out the plays.
You ignored me, the moment I stepped out of the stage.
You pretended, innocently negligent of my being.
Phlegmatic.

I decided; to give up all the deceit.
The make-up; the flamboyant outfits;
And the smile I had held for years.
The huge roar filled my mind with horror.
Behind my closed eyes I can see the faces hastily turning away.
I knew this was the end.

I opened my eyes.
The light from the stage hurt my iris.
Slowly I raised my eyes; into the stage.
I saw you there, in my outfit!!!
In my make-up!!!
In the hilarious position, I had been for long!!!
You were smiling, I believe you were!!!
I pretend!!!